A magical glimpse, a secret door unlocked. This isn't it. The Lord has a bigger plan. Bigger then my wildest dream. My mind was fixated on an idea, on a thought. I embraced it. I gave it all that I could. Loved harder then ever before. Twin souls destined to meet. Bonded by love. I was one hundred percent committed and sure of us, but life happens. Situations change. The amount of growth that is happening  within me is immense. It's becoming clear, in this moment. Every day is a step forward in the right direction. Standing my ground, keeping my morals. My word is my bond. Nothing can shake me. No man can break me. God shields my soul. His angels protect me. I'm no longer drowning in the unknown. I am no longer lost. The mere thought of God's grace fills my heart with joy. A daily struggle, fighting off demons. Those cancerous whispers that lerk in the back of my mind. But love flows out of my heart, slowly healing the wounds. Forgiving and forgetting....How easy it is to write those words. To believe it's that easy to walk away would be absurd. It's okay to be hurt, to feel bad. "Time heals all wounds." Until then, im inspired by the process. Every day my heart aches. Every day I wake up and make the choice to do my best because this moment is all I have. I am not guaranteed later, tonight or even tomorrow. So I embrace it all.