God's Grace has taken on a whole other meaning for me. It's not until you fall flat on your face that you can truly know the meaning of Grace. Whatever that means for you. I fell hard. But, God has forgiven me. I fell on my knees, begging for forgiveness. You know what? He forgave me. Because He is awesome like that. The hardest part is forgiving myself. No matter what I'm feeling right now, no matter how much my flesh pains, I am thankful. Thankful for all the blessings. For each and every thing He has blessed me with. I have learned and am continuing to lean how to be completely dependent on Christ. It's incredible hard. Boy oh boy, how I want to take the easy way out. I want to do what I want to do. I want to play by my own rules. Thankfully the Holy Spirit lives inside of me. I have given my life to Christ. That means I live by His rules. Now it does not matter what I want. I have completely surrendered my life to Jesus. I walk by faith. This is rough. But you know what? I know God will honor my obedience to Him whatever that looks like. His plans are much grander than mine. I will not sow of the flesh, I will sow of the Spirit. Thank You, Father, for giving me this strength and Wisdom. I could not do this on my own. It is a privilege to worship you and glorify you. Please continue to use me. You have complete control over my life. Do with it as you will. In Jesus Holy Name I pray...Amen.