Three Strikes, I Win

Ecclesiastes 8:6
For there is a proper time and procedure for every matter, though a person may be weighed down by misery.

I thought one of my prayers was answered when I was on hold for three jobs, two weeks ago. I was wrong. I didn't book two out of the three. No word on the third, yet. I felt a heavy weight of defeat wondering why the Lord wants me to continue down this path. That's my flesh talking because I know He is teaching me to have joy and peace regardless of my circumstance.

Romans 15:13
May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.


I had to look at the bigger picture. If I booked job number one I would have missed my aunts, Titi Dee Nice, wedding celebration where I was able to spend time with family I haven't seen in years. Plus, the wonderful man in my life was able to meet my very larger family, for the first time. I have to emphasis large because my grandmother had eleven daughters, bless her soul. Regardless of time apart we are close; so their opinion matters to me. I was nervous. We are a direct family who will speak truths no matter how hard it is to hear. To my surprise, I'm not sure why it was a surprise (I underestimated them), they welcomed him with open arms. They didn't care about anything other then the simple fact that I am happy. I prayed long and hard about it and am humbled to have another victory.

Mark 11:24
Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.  

On to job number two. If I booked that SAG national (which would have been awesome!) I would have missed modeling for three amazing designers at the inaugural "Off The Record" Runway show benefiting Second Harvest (https://secondharvestetn.org/); and I would have missed deep talks about Christ with fellow believers. It was a divine moment orchestrated by Our Father above. A powerful conversation between two grew to seven! One model took a stand for Christ, leading a bold conversation about our Savior in the midst of a huge fashion event. This is not a typical thing. The circle fluctuated during the ten hours; Some couldn't deal with talks of Jesus, others were drawn in and shared their love for the Lord. It was transparent God wanted us all to be there.

Proverbs 27:17
Iron sharpeneth iron; so a man sharpeneth the countenance of his friend.

Doing the will of God is greater than any job from this world. Spreading His Word and Light is my purpose; it is why I am here. 

John 3:16
For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life. 

I just received word of my release from job number three. I would be lying if I said I wasn't feeling down about it. Plus, I was given feedback from my short film that wasn't the slightest bit sugarcoated, it was like a dagger through my heart. But, it is all good! I am learning so much right now. I want to give up, but I wont. Why would I? Just because it's difficult? Lame. I know I can do this. I know with God on my side anything is possible.

Romans 5:4
We also boast of our troubles, because we know that trouble produces endurance, endurance brings God's approval, and his approval creates hope.

Thank you, Jesus! Through it all I praise you.